aussie dreams

Been a couple of times these weird dreams keep popping out. 1st,
I dream about him, R again. But this time he was my neighbor and he was finally in aussie although I thought he would be studying at swinburne in melb. I was excited to know he's here closer to me. I was happy and it was hard getting the grin off my face. But things in our house changed; uncle no longer around. The house was more decorative the way I would have designed it and the rooms were rented to a bunch of young girls(students). The house was more lively and homey. You could sense happiness and closeness in the house. Aunt was still staying there of course and she seems younger and relaxed finally.....
Went over to see him. Just wanted to spend time with him since I haven seen him for awhile and considering I'm free. Was kinda nervous going over considering I hardly knew the people he was with and all so it took me awhile before i actually went in.
I saw him but I didn't go straight over. I wanted to so badly but I just wanted to see his reaction, wanted to be sure of many things. He saw me and came over. But there was no smile. He just gave me a huge, long huge and told me how much he loved me and missed me. I felt my heart skip a beat and felt slightly heavy. Why could things be easier between us? Parents and most friends didn't know about him and am hating the fact that we came from different culture and background.Why?
At that moment, I couldn't say anything. Missed him so much that if I were to say something, I was sure I'll start crying. I just whispered "I missed you and love you too", closed my eyes and wished we would never part. But just as I thought that, the hug broke off. He had to go out with a bunch of lads to settle uni stuff and that he'll see me later. I didn't know how true that was. Everytime somebody tell me something, I can't seem to believe or trust anymore. My trust has gone nil. Wish I didn't have that problem but that's that.
They rushed off in some van and I just dragged myself home. walked pass the corridor to try to find company. All the rooms seemed to be open but empty. By the end of the corridor, heard laughters at the last room. Everyone was there having girly chats and all about the new bunch of guys next door (= Joined them a few hours and it seems pretty interesting and funny hearing them talk about the boys next door.
Night came and it felt like Halloween, spooky and scary and as you know I was afraid of the dark. Everyone went for dinner but I had something to eat awhile ago so I didn't join them. I just stood outside staring at the moon with an empty mind. Then I saw them. The guys were walking home laughing and chatting away. Felt kinda invisible coz none of them looked my way but he saw me and came right over from the crowd. I smiled but didn't feel like looking straight into his eyes. He always see right through me when he sees my eyes and I was afraid what he might see wouldn't be nice. I don't even know myself and he knows me better. We walked off away from home with his arms around me..................


2nd,
We were sleeping but I felt my bed kinda crowdy. By morning I woke up to find my mum and another relative sleeping next to me. I seemed to know they were here for a visit. My heater was left on the whole night and it was now a Sunday.
We were all having breakfast and chit-chatting. Aunt K asked how our sleep was. Mum said it was good but felt kinda heaty. i was like (woops), I forgot to turn off my heater. But ah wellz, at least we didn't feel cold right? As usual I kept quiet while the adults(older bunch) chatted away.
Keep wondering their reason to come up to aussie in the middle of the year.
Then it just dawned on me.... It's mother's day today!!!!